"By three methods we may learn wisdom: first by reflection, which is noblest; second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third, by experience, which is the most bitter."
1. When I make peanut and butter sandwiches, the order in which I do it, and the manner in which I do it, must always be the same. After toasting the bread, I add a thin layer of butter to both slices, then peanut butter to both slices, but then, I only put jelly on one slice before I put the sandwich together. Always in that order and for no logical reason other than: "That's the way it must be."
3. Weddings are... bittersweet. I love it when happy couples get married, and I love to look at the dresses, the flowers, and the planning that goes into it. But weddings make me sad...and just a tad bit jealous.
4. I hate what alcohol or drugs can do to people. The physical scars may heal, but the other scars are there for life.
5. I'm afraid of a lot of things. Snakes, ticks, scorpions, tsunamis, and geckos falling on me. But my worst fears include: death of a loved one, failing my kids as a parent, and... abandonment.
6. I'm not as strong as I thought I was.
- Confucius
For whatever reason, I've been doing a great deal of self-reflection these days. It made me wonder what other people have learned about themselves, either accidentally, or on a more premeditated path to self-discovery. I've figured out some things about myself that range from inane to insane.
Here are some things I've learned about myself:
1. When I make peanut and butter sandwiches, the order in which I do it, and the manner in which I do it, must always be the same. After toasting the bread, I add a thin layer of butter to both slices, then peanut butter to both slices, but then, I only put jelly on one slice before I put the sandwich together. Always in that order and for no logical reason other than: "That's the way it must be." 2. I hate public restrooms. Not only are they dirty, whenever I push open a stall, I have an irrational flash of fear that someone on the other side may have forgotten to lock it.
3. Weddings are... bittersweet. I love it when happy couples get married, and I love to look at the dresses, the flowers, and the planning that goes into it. But weddings make me sad...and just a tad bit jealous. 4. I hate what alcohol or drugs can do to people. The physical scars may heal, but the other scars are there for life. 5. I'm afraid of a lot of things. Snakes, ticks, scorpions, tsunamis, and geckos falling on me. But my worst fears include: death of a loved one, failing my kids as a parent, and... abandonment. 6. I'm not as strong as I thought I was. 7. But I'm also learning... I'm not as weak as I thought I was, either.
I know. None of these things are overtly profound or even original, but they are a collection of... me. Knowing what I like and don't like, what I am capable of and what I'm not capable of, will hopefully allow me to take a direction that will prevent me from setting myself up for disappointment. At least... that's what I tell myself ;-).
Always,
Elle.
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